Taylor Talks
Life as an Author, Disney World Cast Member, and Big Sister through Foster Care & Adoption
                              Currently pursuing my own adoption journey... I'm #DreamingofaDaughter!
  • Home
  • Blog
  • Books
  • Dreaming of a Daughter
  • Small Businesses
    • The Write Creations
    • Enhanced Edits
  • About Taylor
  • Contact

Missing Our Little Sister

1/10/2015

0 Comments

 
Welcome back to Taylor Talks!

Tonight before dinner, my littlest sisters were sitting on the bed “keeping me company” (wink, wink… as all older siblings know, that’s code for “I’m keeping them out of my mom’s hair for a little while!!”). I decided, for some odd reason, to read them the writings that I had posted a few days ago, that I had written about each of them. I knew that they wouldn’t completely understand what I was reading to them, but I figured it would waste a little bit of time.

After I read both writings to the girls, Twin B asked me if I had written anything about the little girl who used to live with us, our most recent foster sister. I didn’t know what to say. Of course, I had written these paragraphs about my family two years ago in a creative writing class, so luckily I realized that it was the truth when I said that our little sister hadn’t been born yet when I wrote the paragraphs. But then, of course, the girls started talking about our little sister.

“When is she gonna come back?”

“I miss her.”

“I wish we can keep her longer.”

“Maybe I think she’s gonna come back because her mom might get sick again.”

These were the reactions from the girls when we started this discussion. Let me backtrack a little… when this little girl first came to live with us last year, my mom told the girls that her mom had gotten sick, so we were going to take care of her for a little while. We never imagined that a ‘temporary’ stay with us would turn into almost a year. But that story was the easiest for my little sisters to understand, so that’s what stuck. If you also remember, when she left our house right after Thanksgiving, my mom told all of my siblings that she was going home to her mother. No one would understand the real story, and that she was going to live with another foster family. So everyone thinks that she’s been living home with her mother and happily adjusting to living at home.

Out of all of my foster siblings, this little girl is the only one who I am really angry about having taken out of the home. Maybe that’s why, simply because she didn’t go home. If she had gone home, then I would have been sad, missed her like crazy (of course), but been glad that we had done all that we could do for her and she was being reunited with her mother. Instead, at least once a day, I find myself thinking about ‘what ifs’ and ‘what could have beens’ and finding myself angry about the whole situation each time I think of her.

I guess the biggest question that I have left unanswered is: what happens if she’s eventually put up for adoption? Will the new foster family be asked about adopting her first? That’s not fair, she was our little sister. Will we get asked if we want her back? I’m pretty sure we’d all be on the same page that we’d want her back, but now we’ve missed so much time with her. She’s probably learning how to speak in more complete sentences, and maybe she knows how to use a fork and spoon pretty well now. I have no idea. The whole situation just really bugs me. I guess only time will tell what will happen…

I’d greatly appreciate it if you would share this blog with friends and family through your favorite social media sites. If you’re sharing on Twitter, don’t forget to tag me (@TayTayK02) and use the hashtag #TaylorTalks.

Thanks!
Taylor

Previous Post
Next Post
0 Comments



Leave a Reply.

    About

    Picture
    My family started doing foster care when I was three years old. We took in nineteen children over the course of eighteen years, with our last placement leaving in December 2014. I'm the only biological child in my family, though my parents adopted five of my siblings.

    I love to share my perspective on the foster care system and share how my unique upbringing shaped my life.

    I'm also a Cast Member at Walt Disney World and lover of all things Disney! My career allows me the opportunity to find a little bit of Magic in life every day.


    I enjoy sharing my journey as a writer as well. Find my children's books on Amazon and keep following my blog for updates on future books that I'll be releasing!

    Archives

    January 2021
    December 2020
    November 2020
    October 2020
    July 2020
    June 2020
    May 2020
    April 2020
    December 2017
    September 2017
    August 2017
    July 2017
    June 2017
    May 2017
    April 2017
    March 2017
    February 2017
    January 2017
    December 2016
    November 2016
    October 2016
    September 2016
    August 2016
    July 2016
    June 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016
    December 2015
    November 2015
    October 2015
    September 2015
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    April 2015
    March 2015
    February 2015
    January 2015
    December 2014
    November 2014
    October 2014
    September 2014
    August 2014
    July 2014


    Categories

    All
    About My Family
    About The Blog
    Adoption
    Baking
    Birthdays
    Career
    Cast Member Mondays
    Day To Day
    Disney
    Family Life
    Foster Care
    Foster Parent Fridays
    Holidays
    Informative
    Inspiration
    Memories
    My Life
    Our Experience
    School
    Shared Stories
    Sign Language
    The Write Creations
    Writing


    RSS Feed

Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.