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Coming down from the high of getting offered a position at Disney World has been quite the challenge today. The excitement just carried over from yesterday morning, and every once in a while the reality of the awesome news would hit me again.
It was a really good thing that I had such awesome news to distract me, because I was kind of upset all day. We were supposed to be heading back home to New York tonight for a wedding this weekend, but unfortunately the trip had to be cancelled. Instead of seeing my best friend in a few days, I'll be sitting around at home unless I'm teaching a class. My head knows that it was impossible for us to go; it was so much money right after the move, there were no hotels available, there were no flights (not that I'd actually get on a plane unless I had no other choice)... But my heart is still heavy knowing that the one thing I've looked forward to since we headed to Florida isn't going to happen now.
I think that's why going for this Disney interview was so important to me. I've been feeling pretty homesick, especially after finding out that the trip to New York was off, and this interview was like a bright spot for me to latch on to. I feel like getting this job, even though I don't start for a while, is giving me something really special to look forward to. It's like in the song, "Zip a Dee Doo Dah," where it says that there's "plenty of sunshine heading my way." This Disney job is the sunshine coming toward me. Aside from the people who have been taking my sign language classes, I haven't really met anyone since we've been down here. I'm just so excited to meet co-workers and interact with Disney guests each day; it will be great to talk to someone outside of my family on a daily basis.
As much as I hate feeling homesick and lonely, I know that this is probably a normal way to feel after moving so far away, especially when you lived in the same place your whole life like I did. I know that for every minute I'm feeling sad, there's another minute that I'm laughing with my siblings and feeling happy. I know that this is only temporary, and while I'll always miss my friends, I'll stop feeling so gloomy. It's just taking me longer to adjust than my siblings because they're in school interacting with lots of people each day, and I'm sitting at home. I know that once my position at Disney starts, it'll only be a matter of days before I'm feeling much better.
It's kind of ironic... since sixth grade I've been really anxious around people and have been super shy. I could go through entire days at school not talking to anyone. Yet here I am, craving social interaction more than anything. I'm actually excited about speaking to people and getting to know others through work. Maybe that's the cure for social anxiety; just deprive someone of social interaction and eventually they'll need it so much that it won't be scary anymore!
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My family has been doing foster care since I was three years old. I'm the only biological child in my family, though I now have five permanent siblings. Having nineteen siblings over the course of my lifetime has been an incredible experience, and I'm hoping that by sharing some of the ups and downs of being the only bio kid in a foster family, other foster families or people looking into doing foster care will be able to learn a bit of what life can be like. I also like to share what life is like on my journey to becoming a published author, as well as where my schooling and career choice are taking me.